Trying something different

So recently I have fallen off, like I said last week. I haven't been honest about how much I am eating. So I decided to try something new. I am going to start taking pictures of my food, before I eat it obviously. I laughed at people who did that before. But now it kind of makes sense to me.

See I can rationalize the hell out of overfilling my plate. "There isn't enough for left overs so the food will go to waste." OR "It looks bigger than it really is." "It's only ___ calories so I can have two." But the truth is my original serving is the size of two servings. So now if I have seconds I'm actually having 4ths. But a camera, well it doesn't rationalize anything. The camera is brutally honest. It wont sugar coat it to make you feel better. Its factual.

I also decided I am going to keep a weekly gain loss running total.

And I am going to start taking a pic of me every week. Just the face I am not ready to start with my body.  So here it is week one.

My highest weight was 261 pounds.
I am currently 250 pounds.
My goal is to be 150 pounds.
Kelly Ripa was asked how it is she got hooked on exercise, her response was she started walking 5 minutes a day. 5 minutes. From there she just increased her exercise each day.
So this week I am going to walk. OUTSIDE! Walking around in the house doesn't count. And I am going to say that shopping doesn't either. So everyday I am going to go outside and I am going to walk. 

So those are my goals for the week.
1. take pictures of my food and keep track as to how many pictures I am taking a day!
2. track my weight
3. walk. Even if it is only for 5 or 10 minutes. I am going to get up and get out.

OK time for a little prayer.

Dear God, Thank you for today. Thank you for giving me the little extra boost I needed to get myself out the door and going. I was feeling lazy, I was looking for excuses and I was trying to rationalize not being a good Christian. But you helped me up, You opened my eyes and you reminded me that you are there within me I just have to listen up. Thank you for loving me. For knowing I am a sinner and still believing in me. Thank you for sending your Son to die for me. I gave up pop for Lent and some day's I feel like I would give anything for a pop. I can even imagine the feelings that Jesus went through for me. He drew his strength from you. I need to follow his example and do the same. Please give me the strength to make it through the week. To remember to take a picture of my food and to be honest. And to pray for guidance when I am feeling lost. Amen