Pro Con
My butt looks great in my new jeans
I have been manic and shopping a lot in order to find that same "high"
I have been manic and shopping a lot in order to find that same "high"
that I got from my new jeans.
I pulled out clothes that I had put in storage
because they were to small but I liked them
to much to give them away. While I have been manically
shopping I have been manically
eating too. Its kind of a hand and
hand thing.
I feel good!! I am Happy, I'm ready!!
Its been a good week, its been a busy week. It seems all we have done this week is go go go! But I have been OK with that too. Go Go Go is OK when you are manic. It will suck when the bottom falls out and I swing low. I know some of you are like but you don't have to swing low and the bottom doesn't have to come out. Trust me I would love to stay here I would love to be go go go. But there is only so much manic someone can take. Even with the meds and all I cant always find an even playing field. This manic isn't anywhere near the mania I used to feel and the low wont be as hard or painful as the lows I have experienced in the past. But it is what it is. It is Bi Polar disorder. Living with it, eating with it. Sleeping with it, losing, gaining and maintaining weight with it all have their pros and cons.
Mother Nature has cant make up her mind as to what she wants to do. Hot cold, freeze, rain, blah blah.... but I did decide that Lex and I needed shorts. So I took her for some new shorts on Saturday. We hit Fashion Bug. She got her shorts and was done in 5 minutes. I on the other hand spent 30 minutes looking around. I found 2 pairs of shorts 1 pair of skinny jeans and 1 pair of jeggings ( I think that is what they were called). And this really cute shirt. I don't know what it was but it was so 80's tastic with out being gaudy or creepy I had no choice. The jean shorts were a hair tight but not uncomfortably. 4 to 5 pounds and were good, so they went to the check out pile. The Bermuda shorts, as cute as they were didn't make the grade. I was not willing to go a size bigger, so they had to stay at the store. But the surprises of the day were the skinny jeans and the jeggings. I thought I would be fighting to get into those bad boys. That it would be like when I was a kid and I would need to lay on my back to get the zipper up and I would not be able to breath. But that you stretch material. I got those bad boys up buttoned and with the length of my 80's tastic shirt I was doing alright. I showed the kids. Both of them were amazed and Austin smacked my ass. I felt awesome!!!
At this moment I would like to thank who ever it was who decided that we no longer need to wear low rider pants. I am glad we are past the point of ass crack hanging out, thong up to your arm pits, show your world to me pants. My new pants come up above my ass and I like it that way.
Well Dave just came out and informed me that it is getting late and hes right it is 12:30 in the morning. I am about a day behind on all the things I really wanted to do. But that happens some times too. Oh well. It is what it is. I would like to take a moment to say a little prayer.
Dear God, Thank you for today! Thank you for the great people who have supported me along the way and who will continue to support me in the future. Father, I know I ask so much of you, but I ask it not only for myself but for others. Please Father be with those who are mentally ill. Help them to fight the battlefields in their minds. Help them to find an even playing field, when they feel they can no longer keep their eyes open, when they can not take another step, another breath, embrace them. Help them to not feel shame for who they are. We are all your children. Amen
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