I asked him

I was working two jobs and going to school. I was trying to make a better life for my kids. I had a string of bad relationships and was in another pointless relationship, when I met him. I was standing outside, waiting for the inventory to be delivered, smoking a cigarette and crying over yet another issue I had to deal with as a single mother. I had seen the delivery guy before but never really paid much attention to him. So I was taken off guard when he looked at me and asked me the question that changed my life. He asked me if I needed a hug. He said that I looked like I needed a hug. And I said I did. He listened as I told him about what was going on and when I was done he told me that I would figure it out mothers were hero's and they always figured it out.


I noticed him after that. I also noticed that I dressed a little nicer on the days delivery came. I still had a boy friend at that time. But I wasn't happy. So one Tuesday when he came to deliver stock I asked him when he was going to pick me up on Saturday. He said I had  a boyfriend. I said I wouldn't on Wednesday. He said than ask me again on Thursday. And I did. That is how I met my husband, my best friend, my co-parent, my partner in crime and life, Dave.

I have asked more of the hims in my life than I had any right to. I have asked my dad to forgive me more times than I can count. I had asked my Grandpa Kelly to let me move in to one of his apartments, even though I had not been the best tenant before. I asked someone I once loved to get help for his problems. I have asked people to leave, I have asked them to stay and I have asked them to save me from me.

The one him I asked so much of is God. I ask him things all the time. I ask his forgiveness often. I ask him to help me stand, to help me walk and sometimes to help me breath. I have asked him questions that I don't really have the right to ask and I have asked questions that have no real answers. Why did my Poppy die? Why did Tim choose drugs over me? Why is my brain wired differently?

I am lucky because Dave and my dad are good men. I ask their forgiveness and they forgive me. They are both good Christians. They love me for who I am, They know that I am not perfect but they know that with their love and Gods love that we can make it through every storm.

I talk to God, I ask him to help guide me in the right direction. He has. I bought my new shoes and some work out clothes and I went to Anytime Fitness and I signed the one year membership.  My Fitness Pal is one of the first websites I click on in the morning and one of the last I visit at night. I asked him to save me and now he is showing me how to do it myself.

~~~~~~CANCUN~~~~~

We are currently in Villahermosa. Villahermosa (Spanish pronunciation: [bi.ʎa.eɾˈmo.sa], Beautiful Village) is the capital city of the Mexican state of Tabasco, and the municipal seat of the Centro municipality. Villahermosa reported a population of 658,524 in the 2005 census, whereas its Centro municipality had 558,524 inhabitants. The municipality covers an area of 1,612 km² (622.4 sq mi). The city is located at 863 kilometers from Mexico City, and 998 kilometers from Cancún, making it the virtual equidistant stopover point between these two world-renowned centers of tourism. We have traveled 2339  miles with 487 left. I think the next time we do this we will pick something a little less industrious lol. But I am so glad we did it.

OK So a small prayer and than we are off for the night.

 Dear God, Thank You for today. Thank You for the wonderful people in my life. Thank You for all the him's who love me and help me to have a stronger relationship with You. Thank You for my friends and family who read this and give me support, help me on my travels. I will work harder this week to be the daughter I should be to You. God, please look after those who are struggling. Becket and Jenny. Please be with me God as I face this new week ahead. In your name we pray. Amen