5K are you ready for me?

So I don't think I said anything about this before but I did my first 5K in April. I did a fast walk. I finished in 46 minutes. Not bad for a first time and a walk. So this time I am going to go a little faster. I have been getting out there and pounding the pavement. Not as much as I should but I have been doing it. I know that I will not run the whole thing and I am OK with that. I will walk/jog and hopefully bring my time down to the low 40's or high 30's.

I am not going to lie, some days I HATE the thought of it. I have no motivation to do it. Its that way with everything though. My feelings of suicide are gone and I am feeling so much better since I switched my meds. I finally feel like there is something better. Let's try that again, I remember that there is something better and I am working towards it. That is why I try to get out there and move my ass.

Dave has been a motivating factor in all of this too. It feels so good to hear the one you love tell you that they are proud of you. He tells me all the time how much my hard work is paying off. I haven't lost much weight but he told me he can see where I am firming up. The other day he made me blush as he pointed out all the places he can see the weight loss. I guess I am the only one who can't see it. Maybe because I am so stuck in my own head I can't see past the number on the scale.

I know it has been a while since I talked about Ireland. So let me inform you as to why. My laptop is BROKE! The screen is cracked and I just don't have the money to fix it right now. So I have been using Dave's or Austins. Lexi has been computerless because she is the one who broke my computer. But long story short she earned hers back and I am trying to get the money together to buy myself a newer computer. But all my Ireland stuff is on that computer. My spreadsheet of miles and pounds for each person. The map and route I had planned out. The whole thing. So I havent been keeping track because I am lost in no mans computer land. But as soon as I have a computer of my own we will be on our way to Ireland again.

Well it's time for a little prayer.

Dear God, Thank You for today!Thank You for the love of my family and friends. I am truly blessed to have so much in life. God please be with the family of Don Akers at their time of sorrow. He was a good man and I know he is with you now in Heaven. Please with with Erik Vega and his family as they prepare to let his Uncle Jesse go home to you. Please be with me and help me up when  I fall and guide me when I go astray. In your name we pray. Amen