From the Top!

I  know I have been horrible here. Instead of being honest with myself and everyone else I have been hiding myself in a hole of pity and self loathing. I want a pity party but I  know it will do no good. I have been here before but I have a new weapon. This time I am dealing with a family over haul. Its not me against three it is 4 standing tall. I am working with my kids and my husband this time. We have been talking and figuring it out. Here is my plan

1. grains, whole grains to be exact. no more white bread. no more white pasta. no more white rice.
     I am watching my barbs, fats, protein and sugar.

2. portion control. I dusted off the food scale and put it to use in the kitchen for dinner.
     I weighed my pasta. I weighed my sausage and peppers and onion and garlic. 
     A friend  of mine texted me a pic of portion control sizes. I will be forced to look at it when I eat. 
     Grr

3. accountability. everyday I am going  to sharing my food journal with a few other people.
     I can't hide my food anymore. 
     my friends and  my family can look at it and say, really? a pop tart or something like that

4. CARDIO! just walking the dog for 30 minutes a day with Lex is the first step.
     I will continue to work out at the gym. I will actually increase my exercise regimen.

5. busy time. getting away from the computer and t.v.
     Today I helped out at the Lions Club pancake breakfast.
     I only planned to eat and leave my kid to volunteer with scouts. I bused tables for 4 hours.
     exhausting

Well I am a tired Tina and it is time to get off of here and go read a book.

Time for a prayer and then out of here.

Dear God, Thank You for today. Thank You for the friends who are  there to hold me up and love me. Please help me to continue on a healthy road. I know with You I can do anything.

In your  name we pray. Amen