Snow way I feel like going outside!!!

Its so cold out!!! Snowmagedon, Snowpocolypse, whatever you want to call it, there's snow way I want to be out there. But on Thursdays I bundle up in 3 or 4 layers and I curse myself 10 or 15 times and I drive down the street and I spend 4 hours working with the horses. Its not so bad when your inside, out of the wind. But when your taking the horses out and running hoses and locking gates and clearing paths and trying not to blind yourself or trip over the snow it is horrible. On those days though something amazing happens. I feel great! I feel the ache in my muscles. I feel refreshed. I feel alive. I smell to high heaven, I sweat like a pig and I usually end up stripping off a layer or two. But I feel good. And I usually end up losing weight from all the hard work that comes with it. But by the time Friday night comes around I don't want to set foot out the door. The euphoria that came with the stretched muscles and fresh air is gone. All I want is to burrow into my blankets and pray that the snow melts over night and that the next day is 50 degrees.

There are so many opportunities that come with snow. So many ways to burn the calories and have fun. But that nip in the air gives me an excuse not to go out. I am lazy and lethargic. Its sad really.

A few days before the blizzard I went sledding with Austin, Becky and her kids. I had a good time. But I waited til almost the end to have a good time. Why? because I was afraid. I was afraid I would get hurt. I was afraid that I would look like a fool. I was afraid I would get down the hill and not be able to get back up. I realize I am missing out on so much because I hide behind myself. I hide behind a camera because I don't want to see how much I weigh in pictures. I hide at the top of the hill because I am afraid I will get hurt. I don't take risks because I'm afraid that someone might make fun of me, that I might embarrass myself, that I might hurt myself or that I might find that I have been missing something or wrong about something all along.

Time to say a little prayer.
Dear God, Thank you for today, for loving me and guiding me on my journey. I am feeling lazy God. I am hiding from my full potential. I am using the weather as an excuse and not an advantage in my weight loss journey. I'm afraid God and I am questioning why. Please God, give me the strength tomorrow to get out there and bask in the sunlight that you have given us. Please guide my heart and my hand that I may do your bidding. Please help me to help others, both man and beast, so that they too may know the comfort and warmth of your love and find shelter in your word. Please help me to watch what I put in my mouth and what words come out of it. Amen

Tomorrow I will bundle up, I will curse a few times at how cold it is and I will drive my happy hind end down the street. I will try to remember that the rewards for the hard work out way the cold. That layers can be shed just like weight and that muscle and confidence can form without being noticed. And one day in the spring when the snow is all gone and the weather is nicer I will notice a different person standing there. Layers of clothing and weight will be lifting away and I will be someone that is happier and more confident. I just need to go out into the day God has given me.