Well I'm not going to be here to long today. I am trying to do my best to get out of here and go on a mini vacation with the kids. I'm sad that Dave cant come with. But he has to work. But it will be nice to have 5 days with the kids. We packed up the food. Not a lot of junk food, everyone for a fruit, bananas and strawberry's and apples, We have water and Gatorade and v8. We packed our towels and our sunblock and bathing suits. And all we need to do is throw the bikes on the back of the van and get this show on the road. Well that and I need the dryer to do its job and dry so I have clothes to wear while we are there. So until the dryer is done I am here.
I wanted to clarify something really quick on the amazon thing. See all these amazon things all around well those are just suggestions. The deal is you click on the link, you don't like it that's OK, but you click on the link and in the same search you decide hey I want to look at fedoras or flip flops and you decide to buy those items well then I get my %. It doesn't have to be the stuff I suggest it just has to be in that same search. So that being said. Click on my link before you shop for anything on amazon. Please and thank you!
On to the meat and potatoes of the week. I did all right. Yesterday I busted butt out at the pasture. Dave (mine) and Dave (We call him Strawberry Dave) were cutting down trees. The kids and I were loading the van up and bringing the wood back here and unloading it and then going back and loading up again. Every time we went back the horses decided it was dinner time and they would come and stand in front of the fence. PAIN in the ass let me tell you. Nick, one of the horses, decided blue vans look yummy and tried to eat my van. He left two big ass scratches on my van. SO not cool!!!
I didn't do much in the way of walking I'll admit, but I was busy all the same. We chopped a lot of wood. and I did a lot of cleaning at the barn. I groomed our largest horse and one of our smaller horses. I just kept busy. We also went to the zoo. Spent an hour at the beach one day, but the rip current was bad and pulled Austin under and we were out of there.
The worst part of the week was today. Today as I was standing in church I felt a sharp pain in my chest. The left side of my chest felt like I got sucker punched and then I started having trouble breathing. My chest was so tight. I felt so light headed. My mom took my pulse and it was fine. I didn't feel "sick". I felt more irritated then anything. I thought maybe it was because my allergies were bothering me. But in the end I decided to go to urgent aid. I didn't want to go on vacation, where there are no phones, knowing there was a possibility that I might have a heart attack. You think of a lot of things when people are undressing you and sticking things on your chest and asking you questions at a rate of a mile a minute. But mostly I thought I am 35. I am fat. I am a bad example for these kids. God please don't let this be a heart attack. I was just getting so tired by that point. They gave me baby aspirin and I had taken benadryl for my allergies. So I was just worn out. Where were my favorite phlebolomists when I needed them, Sandy and Denise I missed you!!! The EKG, CT, XRay and labs all came back fine, it is probably muscular or it could be from something else, not lung or heart related, gas bubble, etc. But I was free to go. But I don't think I am.
Here's the thing. I'm a heart attack waiting to happen. Some Doctor some where is going to look at my bloated sweaty face one day and ask how long have you felt this way? How bad is the pain? Are you Diabetic? Have you been nauseous? and I am going to have to tell him, that I have been killing myself for years. Why? I don't know! I just do. I'm selfish.
I don't want to die.
I'm glad I'm going on vacation. I need to go somewhere and think. I wish I didn't have to take the kids with me :)
We are currently at mile 566 on our Cancun walk. The heat is making us all fall behind. But I am proud of us for even getting a mile in at all. Keep going walkers. We are still in Arkansas. Right now we are walking through Higginson, which is in White County. The population of Higginson is 378. The mayor was also a volunteer police officer until the volunteer police disbanded. The White County Fair, held annually since 1930, is the largest county fair in Arkansas, with over 50,000 attending annually.
Well lets say a little prayers so I can get my butt in gear.
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