What a Week

I worked out Monday through Friday. I drank lots of water and I wrote down everything I ate. I gained :(.  I am sad about this and OK about it at the same time.  I am sad because I feel like I have accomplished nothing. I mean seriously I was sweating through all of my workouts. Becky is a slave driver! ( I love her for it) PLUS I had physical therapy 3 days last week. I think they are coming up with new ways to do squats to see if I can make it through them. And I did. The best thing about Physical Therapy is the electro-stim and then leaving lol. I was a beast all week. And that is why I am OK with it.

Dave asked me if some of my issues might be because I went through early menopause. (I had a complete hysterectomy 7 years ago) From the information I have been gathering it might be an issue. I don't take hormone replacement therapy. I LOATHE iron supplements. I am not a great person at remembering to take vitamins. But I am thinking that maybe it would be the boost I need. So I am looking on-line at different menopause supplement's and shaking my head going what the hell? 1000mg of this root and 60IU of that and this and that for memory (ha ha I forgot what they were called.) In the end it is just head scratching and frustrating. I want a pill that says on the box, "Menopause sucks, we are here to help. We can make it so you don't want to kill your children and you don't want to strip in public because you are having a hot flask. We can help control bingo wing and you won't have as many chins as in the Chinese phone book. Your sex drive will be like your 25 again and you will have the energy to get out of bed and wear your big girl panties. You will probably wear the same color shoes to work and you will smile with out having to fake it." I know it is a lot to put on a box and a lot to ask for from a supplements, but damn it I want it all. I am not going to say that weight will never be a problem for me, but I would like to be able to snack and work it off. I mean I can eat a 100 cal. special K protein bar and then when I work out burn 300 calories and still not work off that protein bar. I want a metabolism that is faster than my one legged Uncle Earl. ( OK, I don't have a one legged Uncle Earl, but if I did he would be slow!)

SO  I will continue to work out and I will continue to do research and I might try a bottle of black cohosh, ginko biloba, soy, 10 special ingredients for women's health. Until I find the magic combinations I will just keep on keepin on.

Time for a prayer so I can go back to hanging out with the hubs and kids.

Dear God, Thank You for today! Thank You for loving me and listening when I am angry. Thank You for never giving up on me. Thank You for last night when I wanted to go to the kitchen and snack at 2 a.m. I don't think I could have walked away without You. Thank You for my husband and kids. Please help me to reach my weight loss goals. Keep me strong and smart. Please God, be with my Grandma Kelly and Uncle Marlin. Please be the guiding hand in all that we do, in Your name we pray. Amen