Fragile Kingdom....

I wonder what I look like to a lioness. Am I dinner? A snack? A pink skittle in an endless herd of human skittles that sits there and gawks at her and then moves on to the next resting animal. Does she even notice me at all? I try to think of it from her point of view, but I cant because unlike her I cant think of food as a means of survival, I think of food as something to do. The lioness probably didn't even notice me in the sea of people at the zoo yesterday. She probably didn't see Waldo either. Though I did find him several times. So if I am ever asked "Where's Waldo?" I can confidently say, "Brookfield Zoo."

I'm really irritated right now and I can tell you why. Spaghetti. Well truthfully, carbs! It always happens after spaghetti. My sugars get all jacked up and almost as soon as dinner is over I get this horrible headache. I become a total bitch, snappy and angry. My skin aches and is hyper sensitive and my muscles want to rip through because they are tired of being trapped inside. My brain hurts, my teeth hurt, my muscles hurt, my skin hurts, my ears hurt, my whole body HURTS. I become angry. Everything makes me mad. It has been 4 hours since dinner and I am still not right. My body is still sensitive and God forbid I start to think about something that might irritate me.

I feel bad for the kids. I snapped on them. I snapped on Dave. I should apologize in the morning. Dave was smart. He saw the dark cloud over head and he went quietly away. I told the kids what was going on and how I was feeling. I told them what kind of mood I was in and I told them that the way they were behaving was pissing me off. Yet they continued to fight anyway. I snapped. I should apologize, I should let it serve as a warning. I should learn that spaghetti is not my friend and I should not eat it anymore. Nothing good comes from it, and truthfully. I don't like it all that much.

~~~CANCUN HERE WE COME~~~

We are so close! Our leader this past week is Dana. She has 20 miles. Micci has 15. Kristen is also in the double digits with an estimated 15 and Becky has a 3 week total I am still waiting on. Come on Becky!!! I am a single digit with 5 Stephanie with 9 and Lex with 5. We have traveled a total of 1305 miles.We are 1500 miles from our goal. We can do it. Come on friends!

Well it is time for a prayer and then I am going to go be a lioness in this fragile kingdom I call home.

Dear God, Thank You for today! Thank You for loving me even when I have a hard time loving myself. Thank You for my family and my friends. Thank You for the wonderful weather, the warm sun on my skin has been a blessing. God, please help me to be a better, more patient person. Help me to understand my addiction to food and how certain foods effect my body. Please help me to listen to You and to understand Your way is the right way. In your name we pray. Amen.